* The Door of Love *
Father God: “Mary, that door of your heart we’ve opened last year, I’d like you to keep it open. Before the year 2012, is over, you’ll have an UNexpected guest who will walk right in, and you’ll not even notice. He will go around the ‘house’ of your life.”
Espoo, Finland - It was mid-November when I called my mom in the Philippines, and boy how I felt so homesick! After I hang up, I whispered to God, I wish to spend Christmas with a family. Then France came to mind, and after I sent an sms to my dear French friend, I knew I was to spend Christmas with her and her family. That was ll I knew then.
Tonneins, France - After Christmas, God told me that another door is closed but to keep the door of my heart open because I’ll have an unexpected guest before 2012 is over. This guest will walk right in without me even knowing, and roam around the “house of my life”. I was so occupied with the b-day celebration of a friend ( a member of my host family), so focused that I completely forgot what God has just spoken to me a few days back. On the eve of December 31, I got a friend request over Facebook, it was the b-day girl’s cousin, whom I’ve had a conversation with about the Kingdom of God (for about less than 10 mins I think). I had no idea what I got myself into. Days followed with exchanged casual conversations via FB and emails, until towards the end of my trip, when he asked me about my age. I became a bit suspicious, and I tried to disappoint him. However, he wasn’t. In fact, I realised how he’s been the one initiating conversations, that my logical mind told me to ignore him but I couldn’t for some reason.
Helsinki, Finland - I found myself being drawn to this man. I saw such openness and I thought it’s probably one of those friendships or connections, ministry wise. However, after 1 1/2 weeks, things started to change when I was in....
Biarritz, France, to teach at a DTS. Sometime the during the week, God told me to ask what he was going through a few specific Spring time of his life. He was so transparent and honest that it compelled me to be open as well. I was amazed at how God started to change my heart towards him. From the stories he shared, I found myself weeping before the Lord, I was overwhelmed with what he’s been through in the past - how God carried him through, and how in those moments God called me aside to pray for this man, I’ve never known before. I just knew I had to take a time aside to pray for him.
Then I came back to Helsinki, feeling even more drawn to him. A couple days before I flew to the East of Finland (another DTS to teach in), he asked me why I wanted to know what happened in those Springtimes of his life. I could not tell him though. He was so gracious and patient with me despite my hesitation. I didn’t feel it was time to tell. But that particular evening before my flight, I asked God for wisdom. Then God told me to just mention it was the time I was praying for someone I did not know. After that, another question was impressed on me to ask - “where is this friendship going?” I shuddered. So nervous but took all the courage to ask, as if Holy Spirit opened my mouth to ask him. And I felt he was feeling the same. We found out we were on the same page - wondering. So we both brought that issue to the Lord, we prayed. I felt peace.
Whislt in Siilinjärvi, he’s been carrying me in his prayers. We met up over skype as if processing how my day went, and we’d pray. Each time we prayed, I could sense the Presence of God, so tangible I could feel God’s pleasure over our conversations. It felt like we were magnets being drawn to God’s purposes.
31st January, Thursday afternoon; I went for a walk towards the lake. I stopped by a familiar place I used to go to. It was a spot in the forest where God would often speak about the man He’s been preparing for me. I stood there coz I couldn’t go in - the snow was too deep. God spoke to me with such clarity, almost audible - that this guy I’ve been developing a special friendship with, is the man of my dreams. I was overwhelmed! I continued towards the lake. There, God told me my mother will soon meet her future son-in-law, whom she’s been praying for every night. As if there wasn’t enough confirmations, I asked for one or two more from God. Then He told me, “Mary, tonight, over skype, the topic will be marriage and weddings.” And voilà, at some point he asked me what season would I want to have my wedding, and if I wanted a big or a more intimate one. I didn’t know why I was answering his questions, and if I was responding accordingly, so I told him, I should go because I still have to teach the next day. So as usual, we prayed. I also found out that his father has been praying every morning for his future daughters-in-law. I was so touched! After he prayed, he wanted to pray for my mom. Whislt he was praying, I sensed a burning sensation round my heart, and fire under my spine. He told me, “I’ve never felt such a thing - to cry and shake while praying for someone I’ve never met before.” I was really amazed with God’s ways. I could no longer hold myself together that I just read the rest of his prayer and turned my computer off. I stayed in God’s burning Presence for the next three hours. I’ve never had such an encounter before.
Riga, Latvia - 04 Feb, Monday. It was the night we were just chatting over skype. At some point, he was pouring out encouragements over me that I felt like melting. I asked him why he was doing this. It felt like the time was being synchronised with God’s clock. He asked me that burning question he’s been wanting to ask me, and quite direct, I must say that I had to pause, asking help from God. “Mary, do you... see me... as a potential husband for you?” He asked if I needed some time alone. I was about to say yes but I felt Holy Spirit nudged me, “Mary, you’ve been running away from this for ages.” So I cried help from Holy Spirit. I took my hands off my keyboard and as if Holy Spirit took my hands back onto it and started typing words I couldn’t have done myself. I answered indirectly, which was according to him, the longest 5 or 7 minutes of his life.
Spring 2004 - it was when God told me to start seriously praying for my future husband.
Spring 2009 - God invited me to fast and pray for a month for this man He’s been preparing for me. It was extended to 5 more months of prayer. I could clearly remember walking up early mornings, as if battling with death, speaking life over him, whatever he was going through. The burden was not lifted until I felt peace. It was, according to him, the toughest time of his life that he almost ended it.
Spring 2012 - I was in Sweden. I was awakened a few early mornings to pray for wisdom over him, for him to go deeper in his walk with God, and for him to start thinking of me. He confessed to me later on, that God told him 3 things: to seek wisdom, to take his prayer life into a deeper level, and to find a wife.
So that evening, we committed ourselves to each other. I know for sure it was scary for me, having lived my life alone for the last 10 years, wasn’t easy to adjust. But one thing I’ve been learning, is that I’ve taken a risky step but it’s worth it! It’s worth it!!! I’ve been discovering things about myself I’ve never seen before - God has been using this man as a vessel of His love, to bring out the best in me, the poet in me, and I can’t stop thanking God for bringing our paths together, in ways I couldn’t imagine. I’ve asked for supernatural encounters with the Lord, He gave me more than that. There’s more to be said, and details I’d like to spare that we both cherish. This is all I could write for now, my precious friends! Thank you very much for being part of my life, for believing in me, and I honour who God is in your life.
I would like to ask that you’d keep us in prayers for protection, and for God to continue teaching us to love like He loves,to keep guarding our hearts. We’d greatly appreciate if you could email us if and when you get any impression or encouragements for both of us. Again, merci, merci beaucoup!!!
Blessings galore,
Mary and Alex
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